Janell Sihay

Gratitude Log #2

Adding an entry to my gratitude log!

  1. I am honestly grateful I mustered the courage and determination to come up with my first manuscript draft. It still needs more work, and I still need to improve my writing, but I think I have already come up with the main points in my story.
  2. I am grateful Chev recovered his health. 😭 He got sick of dengue and was hospitalized for days. It was his first time ever getting admitted. I was not used to him being sick because he was always the healthy one between us. I got really scared that I prayed to God for the first time in a long time.
  3. In relation to #2, I am grateful I am finding my way back to God. I've always thought about how I ended up where I am right now. I used to pray regularly before starting or ending my day. I think about God when I am happy and when I am down. I always asked him for guidance. It was something I just did, and it wasn't hard, probably because I grew up in a Jesuit institution. I guess somewhere in my college years I was exposed to a lot of ideologies that made me question my faith. But now, having experienced so much since then, I know in my heart that I will find peace in God's forgiveness. Right now, I am reconnecting and rebuilding my relationship with Him through praying the Examen.
  4. I am grateful for moments like this when I get myself out of a slump. Today, I have been feeling empty and joyless about life. On top of that, I have been having these headaches that seem to radiate towards my nape and spine. I just feel....blah. I can't seem to focus. I can't look at my manuscript draft without feeling a little anxious. But just a few moments ago, I got out of bed and just started writing my heart out. Turns out that was all it took to make me feel a little better.

Wow I don't didn't expect this entry to be a heavy one haha. But it's fine, sometimes ~it really be like that.~